Once again, events seemed to conspire against me, as they have done almost all week. This is easily the worst spell I've had with regards total all-red matches in a week. 4 more today and just one win. Only this time, I lost my full stake for the first time. I'd struggled each day to keep my discipline amidst all the horrendous luck and had taken 25% losses each and every time. But today, I just couldn't take it anymore.
I started with a win in the Sharapova game but the Murray, Nadal and Petkovic games did not fall my way, despite doing everything correctly. I was so pissed off at Nadia Petrova's inexplicably poor game, which came out of nowhere after several brilliant ones, that I could feel the frustration reach tipping point. I lost all discipline in the following game, used a terrible entry point and let it run till I had to take a 25% loss yet again. And that was it. The volcano erupted and I piled in on Roger Federer right then and there, with no intention of ever trading the match properly. I'm sure you're aware he lost, with a pitiful performance, to Berdych.
I'm not sure I can take much more of this. Right now, I could happily end this trading lark and never look back. I haven't got the patience required for this and I'm not sure that I ever will have. Even though I've waited longer and been more disciplined than I have in months, eventually, I always seem to snap and give up. I know things will turn soon but it might be too late by then. I'm not sure I can take much more of a battering to my ego. Gonna rest from the blogging for a while and see if I can get my head together for one last try. I'm writing this in the immediate aftermath of the Federer game, so maybe I'll feel better later. At the moment, I doubt it.